{"id":1609,"date":"2014-12-08T14:49:01","date_gmt":"2014-12-08T04:49:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/?p=1609"},"modified":"2014-12-08T15:10:25","modified_gmt":"2014-12-08T05:10:25","slug":"thirty-seven-comets-cradle","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/?p=1609","title":{"rendered":"thirty-seven (comet’s cradle)"},"content":{"rendered":"
\"abstract_by_spyros07\"<\/a>
This image was \u2026 borrowed from ‘Spryos07’ on DeviantArt<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

When I was\u00a0young\u00a0I thought I understood everything.<\/p>\n

I thought I knew what pain was, and what to do with\u00a0it, how to recover from it. I thought I knew what it would mean to bear a child, and raise them, and love them.<\/p>\n

I didn’t know enough to be frightened by the fragility of the hearts that beat a fingerspan below my own.<\/p>\n

I didn’t understand about the forests and the hunters. The frosts that penetrate your bones. The hooks that catch in your lungs, that tug you up\u00a0through the winter\u00a0air. I was like a captivity-born fox loosed from a cage. Wild and unafraid. Racing out into the\u00a0forest. Knowing nothing. Loving everything.<\/p>\n

The truth is, no one
\nwho has been caged
\nenters\u00a0the world completely<\/p>\n

Some part of you remains
\nin the cage. Some part of the cage
\nremains in you<\/p>\n

and mothering
\nis a series of wounds
\nyou make in your own skin<\/p>\n

you pluck the bones\u00a0from yourself
\nto make a\u00a0cradle\u00a0for the future<\/p>\n

a process you will never
\ncomplete; a quest at which
\nyou\u00a0have always already failed.<\/p>\n

The truth is, none
\nof the things they tell you
\nare true: love\u00a0is not\u00a0easily
\nreturned; It is not
\nharmless. It is rarely, if ever,
\nkind.<\/p>\n

All of the harm
\nin this world\u00a0emerges from
\nand is consoled by love.<\/p>\n

You’re falling now;
\nYou’re fallen. And I
\nam one of those to\u00a0blame for
\n–one of those who is\u00a0awed by–
\nthe beautiful\u00a0way you burn.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

When I was\u00a0young\u00a0I thought I understood everything. I thought I knew what pain was, and what to do with\u00a0it, how to recover from it. I thought I knew what it would mean to bear a child, and raise them, and love them. I didn’t know enough to be frightened by the fragility of the hearts…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1611,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_seo_schema_type":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[725,1,167,288],"tags":[722,727,877,878,166,728,879],"class_list":["post-1609","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-200-words-200-days","category-misc","category-on-writing","category-short-works","tag-200-days","tag-200-words","tag-comet","tag-fox","tag-love","tag-microfiction","tag-mother"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4LH1G-pX","jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/abstract_by_spyros07.jpg?fit=1280%2C1024","_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1609","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1609"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1609\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1615,"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1609\/revisions\/1615"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1611"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1609"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1609"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.perilousadventures.net\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1609"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}